5am
Oct. 16th, 2009 | 04:59 am
Getting over the flu and awake at 5AM. Smoking tonight made my mind race, as it often does, and into realizations.
Now,
Language does help, it is helping right now in writing this down, but in saying "create" I mean to attempt to make a mold of what you're feeling, making something entirely out of nothing. Is language even that: "creating something out of nothing"? I don't know that I have seen it or felt it that way before. But then again I never really got into poetry at all, SHIT
Emotion is what you experience, strong emotion, when something more powerful than you can comprehend is channeled through you. Like the flow of electricity through 2 points, the medium that it is channeled through experiences a powerful current that came external to itself, a current that VIOLENTLY SHAKES it. You, I, the experiencer of emotion, are the medium.
Now,
That is why you, why I MUST create. While i exist in this world as a medium, I have to output as much of this channel as I can--widen the stream large enough--this is done through discipline (habit forming, practice of technique, etc)
Language does help, it is helping right now in writing this down, but in saying "create" I mean to attempt to make a mold of what you're feeling, making something entirely out of nothing. Is language even that: "creating something out of nothing"? I don't know that I have seen it or felt it that way before. But then again I never really got into poetry at all, SHIT
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o hi
Sep. 29th, 2009 | 02:42 pm
location: work
mood:
calm
Been a while since I've posted anything here....what up?
I spent like the entire weekend programming with a friend, trying to get stuff together for GDC 2010. If you've ever played electroplankton on the DS, thats sort of the closest game I can think of for what we're trying to make. Interactive/generative music.
This is all just really basic concepts/prototypes for the game but here's an idea of what we have so far.
On an unrelated note, school is starting today and I'm....well its hard to put how I feel. I can't honestly say that I'm excited about it, but its the right place for me to be, and that is good.
I spent like the entire weekend programming with a friend, trying to get stuff together for GDC 2010. If you've ever played electroplankton on the DS, thats sort of the closest game I can think of for what we're trying to make. Interactive/generative music.
This is all just really basic concepts/prototypes for the game but here's an idea of what we have so far.
On an unrelated note, school is starting today and I'm....well its hard to put how I feel. I can't honestly say that I'm excited about it, but its the right place for me to be, and that is good.
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@ GDC 2009
Mar. 27th, 2009 | 01:35 am
Scott, hopefully you will appreciate this!

I met Keita Takahashi (Katamari Damacy) today after an amazing talk he gave, and he custom autographed my macbook!

I met Keita Takahashi (Katamari Damacy) today after an amazing talk he gave, and he custom autographed my macbook!
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Rebuilding my library
Jul. 25th, 2008 | 08:37 am
location: work
So since the pins broke off of my 300GB sATA drive, my 160GB IDE drive failed on my last week, and apple reformatted the harddrive in my laptop after specifically saying they wouldn't, I have officially lost ALL of my music.
Thanks to tasty breakfast food websites, I don't imagine it will be impossible to recover everything I had, but.... it's still a pain.
( I streamed my consciousness into a list of artists I need to recover )
I'm sure I left out alot of good stuff that I had. Help me! What else belongs here?
Thanks to tasty breakfast food websites, I don't imagine it will be impossible to recover everything I had, but.... it's still a pain.
( I streamed my consciousness into a list of artists I need to recover )
I'm sure I left out alot of good stuff that I had. Help me! What else belongs here?
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zzzzz
Jan. 29th, 2008 | 09:56 am
location: class
mood: holy shit
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New experience
Nov. 29th, 2007 | 04:44 am
This is pretty awesome, and was most likely a result of my dream training that i've been doing by keeping a journal of every dream or nightmare that i have.
Earlier tonight I had what wikipedia refers to as a wake-induced lucid dream. In other words, I went from a waking state to a sleeping state with absolutely no lapse in consciousness. I closed my eyes and slowly fell into a dream...it was indescribably weird. I got so excited when i realized what had happened that i immediately woke myself back up. Oh well it was cool.
And really fucking .. weird
Earlier tonight I had what wikipedia refers to as a wake-induced lucid dream. In other words, I went from a waking state to a sleeping state with absolutely no lapse in consciousness. I closed my eyes and slowly fell into a dream...it was indescribably weird. I got so excited when i realized what had happened that i immediately woke myself back up. Oh well it was cool.
And really fucking .. weird
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Mindfuck
Nov. 13th, 2007 | 01:00 pm
I accidently placebo'd myself.
I had been drinking coffee from this ziploc bag of coffee grounds that my mom gave to me a while back. I had it like every morning for 2 weeks and it was REALLY helping me get up in the morning ( i was having very clear physical effects from it )
Today I went home to get more from the same bag, only to find it had a giant red label on the front that said DECAF
Fucking crazy.
I had been drinking coffee from this ziploc bag of coffee grounds that my mom gave to me a while back. I had it like every morning for 2 weeks and it was REALLY helping me get up in the morning ( i was having very clear physical effects from it )
Today I went home to get more from the same bag, only to find it had a giant red label on the front that said DECAF
Fucking crazy.
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stoned@5am thought
Oct. 28th, 2007 | 05:17 am
i have my most clear, organized, and logical thoughts in the shower.
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(no subject)
Sep. 23rd, 2007 | 08:56 pm
I started running today.
I forgot how good excersize feels.
I forgot how good excersize feels.
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People update
Aug. 20th, 2007 | 03:48 am
Mendel: Cards were awesome last weekend. Mostly awesome because for the first time in my life i got to take money from you and tyler. Seriously though, please call me 5415104474 or AIM me or LJ me when you want to play again, im totally down.
Mer: Have fun in california! please drive safe
Angelo: I'll call you tomorrow about superbad
Drew: Definitely still need to see you this summer. I'm gonna talk to scott soon about when he wants to go out to bend and stuff.
Scott: See above. Were you still planning on doing that?
Matt J: You leave in a couple days? Any sort of gathering going on? Midnight ihop?
Ariana: DAMMIT! You left and i didnt even know? That sucks, i didnt even get to say goodbye. I'm sorry :(
All you other suckers: whats up?
Mer: Have fun in california! please drive safe
Angelo: I'll call you tomorrow about superbad
Drew: Definitely still need to see you this summer. I'm gonna talk to scott soon about when he wants to go out to bend and stuff.
Scott: See above. Were you still planning on doing that?
Matt J: You leave in a couple days? Any sort of gathering going on? Midnight ihop?
Ariana: DAMMIT! You left and i didnt even know? That sucks, i didnt even get to say goodbye. I'm sorry :(
All you other suckers: whats up?
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Seth is my hero
Jul. 24th, 2007 | 10:55 am
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Left lung takes the lead, current score 3-2
Jul. 6th, 2007 | 02:58 am
Warning: This post is probably longer than all my previous posts combined.
( The most insane and chaotic experience of my life. )
P.S. nicole if you read this (i'm gonna message you and liz later on facebook when i get internet access), really sorry that i cant make it to the fair, and sorry its at such late notice. I'm REALLY bummed about it because i was looking forward to it for soooo long but hopefully you can give the spot to someone else? mer had mentioned she wanted to go. Anyway, yeah, I will definitely still get to hang out other times this summer (unless you're doing youth corps too...BOO...we'll figure something out). But have fun!
( The most insane and chaotic experience of my life. )
P.S. nicole if you read this (i'm gonna message you and liz later on facebook when i get internet access), really sorry that i cant make it to the fair, and sorry its at such late notice. I'm REALLY bummed about it because i was looking forward to it for soooo long but hopefully you can give the spot to someone else? mer had mentioned she wanted to go. Anyway, yeah, I will definitely still get to hang out other times this summer (unless you're doing youth corps too...BOO...we'll figure something out). But have fun!
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Top 5 favorite albums
May. 24th, 2007 | 01:08 am
...released within the last 10 years.
I gave this a little bit of thought driving home tonight.
Opeth - Blackwater Park
Radiohead - Kid A
Aphex Twin - Drukqs
Royksopp - Melody A.M.
Jordan Rudess - Rhythm of Time
Now you guys tell me :)
I gave this a little bit of thought driving home tonight.
Opeth - Blackwater Park
Radiohead - Kid A
Aphex Twin - Drukqs
Royksopp - Melody A.M.
Jordan Rudess - Rhythm of Time
Now you guys tell me :)
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Pipes!
Feb. 9th, 2007 | 12:13 am
Yahoo's new service lets you create and browse dynamic/composite feeds. Seems very cool, though i dont know how complicated the process of making your own is; however, the editor is totally GUI based.
Boring article
Boring article
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(no subject)
Jan. 29th, 2007 | 10:38 pm
Favorite movies of 2006?
I would probably put Crank, Children of Men, and Little Miss Sunshine up there.
I would probably put Crank, Children of Men, and Little Miss Sunshine up there.
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Nov. 13th, 2006 | 01:58 am
italian restaurant -1
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profound realization
Sep. 21st, 2006 | 12:22 pm
I judge the quality of a persons character by how many sodas they can chug in chrono trigger



